endless round of contradictions

N-am stiut niciodata ca neputinta doare atat de tare. Cu toate ca stiu ca nu e vina mea si nici nu va fi niciodata, nu am sa reusesc vreodata sa inteleg de ce... m-am saturat sa caut un raspuns care nu exista.mi-a ajuns. mi-au ajuns melodiile melodramatice care nu fac decat sa deschida usi spre tipuri de sentimente pe care nu le-am mai intalnit pana acum.Nu mai pot asa..Dar am sa continui ca pana acum... realizez ca nu e vina mea, ca nu am fost indeajuns de importanta incat sa schimb ceva, dar am nevoie de un raspuns. Repet, sunt constienta ca nu am sa gasesc nimic. Dar oare o sa ma impiedice realitatea? stim bine ca nu... e un cerc vicios...


"John House was a cold and controlling person with limited affection or understanding of House. House himself hated his father. In the episode where a patient has been raped he admits to her that his father was cruel to him. He reports abuse, which reflects the fragile relationship. House is wounded by these primary relationships, his mother's dishonesty and his father's hostility. His colleagues acknowledge that this is the source of House's deep unhappiness, his fear of intimacy and cynicism."